The Pixel and the Pacifier: My Tale as a Designer Dad

Putra
5 min readJun 21, 2024

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Literally my new setup, I just move 1 of my 3 monitors into my bedroom desk and abandon my working room to get closer with him. The funny things I don’t need all 3 monitors …

I stare at my computer screen, bleary-eyed and caffeine-deprived, trying to decipher my client’s latest round of feedback. The clock on my desk mockingly displays 1:25 AM, a time that has become all too familiar since the arrival of my newborn son, Omar, just 88 days ago.

As if on cue, a plaintive wail erupts from the baby monitor. My fingers, poised over the keyboard, freeze mid-air. I glance at the half-finished design on Figma, then at the door, caught in the age-old dilemma of the working parent.

With a sigh that’s equal parts exhaustion and amusement, I push back from my desk. “Coming, little one,” I murmur, padding down the hallway. “Daddy’s got you. And maybe you’ve got some design ideas to share?”

As I cradle Omar, gently swaying in the soft glow of his nightlight, I can’t help but chuckle at the absurdity of my situation. Here I am, a wanna be successful product designer known for eye-catching layouts and innovative solution, reduced to a sleep-deprived zombie who can barely remember which end of the diaper goes where.

Yet, as I gaze down at Omar’s tiny face, I realize that perhaps this chaotic juggling act is teaching me more about design than any client brief ever could. After all, isn’t parenthood the ultimate exercise in problem-solving, time management, and creating something beautiful out of chaos?

With renewed determination, I settle Omar back into his crib and return to my desk. I have a design to finish, a deadline to meet, and a whole new perspective to bring to my work. The life of a designer dad might be messy, exhausting, and often hilarious, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

As I sit back down at my desk, I can’t help but reflect on how my life has changed in just six short weeks. Before Omar’s arrival, my world had been a carefully curated palette of colors, fonts, and perfectly aligned elements. Now, it’s a whirlwind of midnight feedings, diaper changes, and stolen moments of productivity between my son’s naps.

I glance at the corkboard above my desk, where my meticulously organized project timeline now shares space with a hastily scribbled feeding schedule and a strip of family polarioid photos. The juxtaposition makes me smile. Who would have thought that the skills I’d honed as a designer would come in so handy as a new parent?

Take time management, for instance. I’ve always prided myself on my ability to juggle multiple projects and meet tight deadlines. But nothing had prepared me for the relentless, round-the-clock demands of a newborn. I’ve quickly learned to make the most of every spare minute, whether it’s sketching ideas while Omar naps on my chest or responding to emails one-handed while warming a bottle.

And then there’s the art of improvisation. In design, I’ve always stressed the importance of being flexible and adapting to client feedback. Now, I find myself applying those same principles to parenthood. When Omar refuses to sleep in his crib, I get creative, discovering that the gentle vibration of the washing machine can lull him to sleep in minutes. It’s not conventional, but it works — a perfect example of form following function.

Even my eye for detail is finding new applications. Where once I’d obsessed over kerning and color gradients, I now find myself meticulously examining Omar’s every expression and movement. Is that a smile or just gas? Is the slight redness on his cheek a rash or just an imprint from the blanket? My observational skills are being put to the test in ways I’d never imagined.

As the night wears on, I alternate between tweaking my design and tending to Omar. With each interruption, I find myself approaching my work with fresh eyes. The client’s feedback, which had initially seemed daunting, now sparks new ideas. Perhaps it’s the lack of sleep, or maybe it’s the newfound perspective that comes with parenthood, but I feel a surge of creativity I haven’t experienced in years.

By the time the first rays of sunlight begin to peek through the blinds, I’ve not only completed the design revisions but have also come up with a bold new concept that I’m sure will wow the client. As I save my work and shut down my computer, I hear Omar stirring again.

I make my way back to bedroom, I can’t help but see the parallels between raising a child and nurturing a design project. Both require patience, dedication, and a willingness to embrace the unexpected.

“You know, little guy,” I say softly, as Omar blinks up at me with wide, curious eyes, “I think you might be my greatest creation yet. And trust me, I’ve made some pretty amazing things in my time.”

As I settle into the rocking chair for Omar’s morning feeding, my mind is already racing with ideas for my next project. But this time, instead of feeling overwhelmed by the competing demands of work and family, I feel a sense of excitement. I’m beginning to see that my roles as a designer and a father aren’t in conflict — they’re complementary, each informing and enriching the other.

The sun rises higher, marking the start of a new day. For me, it’s more than that. It’s the dawn of a new chapter in my life, one where pixels and pacifiers coexist, where creativity flourishes amidst chaos, and where the lessons learned in fatherhood will undoubtedly make me a better designer — and vice versa.

As Omar drifts off to sleep in my wife arms, I allow myself a moment of quiet contentment. The journey ahead will be challenging, no doubt, but it will also be the most rewarding project of my life. And I can’t wait to see how it will unfold, one sleepless night, one breakthrough idea, one precious moment at a time.

Time is a designer’s most precious resource, but a father’s greatest gift. In both roles, I’ve learned that being present — truly present — is the masterpiece that matters most.

Always be there, for in the tapestry of life,

it’s not the grand gestures but the small, consistent moments that create the most beautiful patterns.

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